I am totally into fashion wars! hehehe... ( be sure to add me alright! )

what annoys me most is when I attack people & they take it so personally! I mean come on honey, I'm just looking for money! :D Its the nature of the game!

anyways moving on...


The other day I had my facial, MY OH MY it is so painful! Unavoidably I sneeze when they picked all the blackhead an whiteheads on my nose. . . LOL! I always do, & I always picture that one day I would sneeze on the lady's face and all my saliva would splat on her face HAHA (That wa a pretty disgusting thought but that's what I always fear LOL)

here is my little nephew at some beach game organized by my church. I find this picture so cute. . .

With this I bid you good bye dear readers!

xx

you got me wishing on a wishing star

I have such mixed feelings about everything.

Such as, let's see my result. It came out just 2 days ago. I am happy that I pass everything & will be entering my 3rd year, yet I am disappointed I did not get more than one distinction!
In the end of the day, I am on the borderline of being happy and sad. :|

Second example, I wanna be selfish and tell my boyfriend to be everything that I want him to be, do my will not his own BUT I can't because I know he won't be happy. Because of this he does what he does, & I am not completely happy.

Third, I really want to get a new phone, N97. However because of point 1, I feel guilty to ask mum to just cough out 2k, just because I want a new gadget to flash around. Yet I feel I deserve what I want regardless the results of my studies because I tried my best. I gave all my efforts & yes, I did loose concentration but distractions came from a third party. So?
I repeat, not completely happy.

I can't be bother to type anything else... :(

May this be a phase, hope I grow more gratitude towards what I have & not dwell on what I do not have. . .

I like! :D

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OH MY!! I have this annoying, painful, itching SON OF A BITCH of a cough! :(

Went out last night with Stacy then the boys followed soon after. We had good time. Believe it or not it was the night where I actually drank and puke since I've been on school break... :D

It felt good up until where my stomach felt like it was turning upside down, Stacy followed me and puke after she saw me puking HAHA! But after that I was so fine, I could see everything!

Will upload the pictures soon...

So far this holiday has been full of dramas, I am super annoyed with them! I want to have no part of it but at the same time have great concern over them... Sometimes I wish I could be selfish and shut up about it but naturally I poke my nose at it... Especially when people ask for my opinion or help, leaving me no choice but to get involved.

I love voicing out my opinions and giving anyone a word of advise when they asked for it but what I do not appreciate is when they feel attack by what I say because I do not support their views. I mean hello!!!! Do not expect me to recite what you say. If you want to only accept your views then sit in front of a mirror and talk to yourself!

It is so embarrassing to be arguing over the matter anyways. I find it dumb! People always say BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER... but sometimes I wonder, maybe it is just a nice saying to say, it does not necessarily apply to all...

• my step aunty and step grandma fought for years and years & have not talked till today!
• my cousin practically ran from home and have not called to check up on his parents. so he does not know of his father recent death
• ......

I like to think maybe sometimes in the future these people will amend the relationship with their "loved ones" but the chances are so thin and maybe pointless! (my step grandma is so old and by the my step aunt decide to kiss and make up, the mother would probably be dead!)

Its better late than never. HMM... :S

I'm so sick of all the heat the media is putting on the death of MJ, John & Kate plus 8 and any other nerve pissing repetitive news they put on every channels, newspapers and websites!

Firstly the MJ thing is too much of a pity-publicity that I think MJ do not deserve... Before he was dead, everyone viewed him as a child molesting 'king' or plastic surgery monster! BUT because he is now dead, suddenly the media has a heart and a soul? Calling him "King of POP" and talking of all the greatness in his music... Why did they deny his title before? Why did they focus on his personal side not his music? Why did every singer/rapper had him in their song lyrics as a molestor, as plastic-monster?!! Suddenly when he is gone, every star dedicate their throphy on his name? Thank him for his support towards them? Why didn't they back him up, stood up for him when he most needed it? Why now? Why are they showing their love for him when he does not need it? (I believe he is with someone much greater than you and me, who will not hate him for what he did but find forgiveness because He is stronger and not a hypocrite, He is not human)

Secondly, this whole John and Kate plus 8 is overly ANNOYING! Media is putting so much publicity on a freaking family!!! I mean HEEEELLLOOO!! Marriage, kids, cheating and divorces are not that UNCOMMON! It happen a lot and why are they so interested in these strangers lives? Just because they are a "celebrity"??? They are not really! Without all the publicity and dumb people giving them the attention they are just another broken family! What the hell is so special about them that they fill up the minutes on E! News.

In addition to the above, I think E! News should stick to "fashion police" stuff and those brainless-bimbotic "reality" shows!

Sometimes I really wish things were easier done, easier said, easier to be understood but people keep telling me what is the point of all of that? "It is about the journey, not the destination"
Well I guess it makes sense, but destination freaking matters too right? If you end up in some shit hole then it is not exactly good right? unless you take the shithole as the journey itself and continue the journey to end up in a better destination.

"life is not so sweet without the bitter". every time things get hard, I tend to think about this a lot. and most of the time it is so true... after you fall you will always get back up if you keep on trying, and eventually you will get to a really good place and occasionally some shitty things bite you in the ass but i guess "life is never easy". If it was easy, breezy we would not cherish/love that particular "thing"!

On a good note, things are damn good with the boyfriend! the other day he randomly made me breakfast.... HAHA! After he kissed me in the morning, he asked "coffee or tea?"
I tell you, I wish i could pause the moment, record it and replay it anytime i wanted~

You see, he is not exactly romantic, i guess that is good because i used to resent my last relationship as he was so lovey dovey! but then Fred sometimes can go over board with his non-romantic-ness! At times i feel like walking with a banner that says
"GIRLFRIEND = Girl = EMOTIONAL"

but heck i love him! our 2 years anniversary is on the way! *big ass smile*

God has been very kind, I only pray that we never forget what he has given us..

HELLO WORLD!

here is 'after exam, freedom' post! up until today, i had no chance to blog about what has happened after my 8.30 AM exam on 17th JUNE! DAMN it feels so fucking GOOD to have no exams waiting around the corner, imagine this really fugly skank in your life whom always seem to annoy every single nerve in your body, then one day you get to slap the HELL out of her and she would just curl up and cry her eyes out! YES!! it feels dammmmmmmmmnnnnnnnn gooooooodd!! :P

well after exam it wasn't exactly all fun and yipeee-hoo! i was stuck traveling in a bus for 8 hours and another 3 hours boat ride... GGGAAAAH!! i tell you, the bus ride is torture! the roads were bumpy as shit, there were almost no flat surface at all!! it was a freaking golf ball!

didn't take any picture on my trip, wasn't really appropriate but i did manage to have a few vain pictures here and there. but that's in my phone. You'll have to wait!! :D

but when i got to Miri, I was running around doing few things.. and here are the pictures!

on the way to the waterfall... :)

boyfriend had the camera so he takes ugly photos of me.. this is one of them!

i almost step on this~ boyfriend tried to warn me by saying "B" and pointing at it... BTW, his "B" was so soft I did not hear... So then I screamed like hell!! and he said "I tried to warn you"... GAAH!

My step sister, who was here for a few weeks. I enjoyed her company better this time.. We have a better bond, i think because she loosen up and I've grown up.


We went to eat at this place, its Shabu-Shabu. It's just Japanese, during the winter is super cold so they have this meal where they dip the food in a boiling water but only for around 2-3 secs. The meat has to be thin, so it gets cook fast! I like it because I love fish, vege and the soup!

I am way to lazy to upload all of the pictures, so Ill upload some in FB too...

Toodles people! Have a nice day!